André’s Weblog

I always get excited everytime the rainy season begins. That may sound the complete opposite of what most people feel. I think of the rainy season as a break from the intensely hot weather we usually have, one of the things I hate about being close to the equator. I get to wear jackets during this time of the year! I really need it since the school airconditioning is sometimes really really cold. I also have this “fetish” when it comes to jackets. I usually try to save up some cash to be able to buy new ones. I’m actually in the process right now. School stuff is starting to get hectic again. I’ve learned from the errors I made previously. I’m now usually a step ahead when I work for my grades. I really really want to continue studying abroad. I keep praying that I will get the grades that I need to be accepted. I also pray for the financial stuff, of course. Studying in Canada is no cheap thing. Because of the Peso-Canadian Dollar exchange rate, my maximum tuition could cost a brand new car every year, for 2 years! I’ll admit that I’m probably dreaming too much, but I really want this to happen. I really really want. I won’t let anything stand in the way of what I want to achieve. I updated my friendster profile yesterday. It’s been a while since I did, although I really think I might cancel my friendster account. It’s full of idiots who wish they looked like someone else, specifically TV stars. I’m just waiting to get a new camera, then I’m off to Flickr. Photos will be the only thing I’ll be sharing with people whom I really know. Pictures are the best way to let people know what you are up to. I find them more expressive than words.

My dad and I also had a talk yesterday when we were on road. He was saying that he also wants me to continue my studies in Canada. He said that he doesn’t want me to get exposed to the current Philippine society anymore. If you ask me, I believe he is right. Our generation now is much much worse than the previous generation. There are a lot of bums, aged 18-30, who want nothing but personal enjoyment. They don’t take education seriously, let alone expect them to work one day! I don’t think there is such a thing as a nationality anymore. When the previous generation dies, all the responsibilities will left to us. These bums are going to be with us, probably to make things much worse.

Intersting, isn’t it?

I felt like blogging about something today. I suddenly felt the longing to live on my own. I’ve always wondered how it would feel like to live somewhere away from my parents. Surely, they will still be with me, financial-wise . I’m not sure when and why I felt this. Let’s say that I do get good grades this year, which will allow me to continue studying abroad, and my Dad earns the money I need to do it and live in Canada. What would happen? My life will change forever. I’m just so curious what it would be like to decide on my own (everything), to pay the bills, to use the public transport, etc. I acknowledge the fact that I wasn’t a real teen (technically, I was and still am) because I chose to mature faster in terms of the way I act and the way I think. I am actually glad that I took that path. When I look around, I feel sorry for the infidels who smoke, do drugs, bum around, and neglect their education. It just shows that I have more self-control than they do. I don’t give in to what our society dictates, given the fact that what it dictates is not all good. I have always been strong about my feelings and I know that they are true and pure. Heck, I think that this is all a test for me! A test which will prepare me for something bigger, wherein I will be alone. Wow, I must say, I am on a roll here! It all adds up! Maybe my teenage life is the preparation for an independent life!

If I will be given the blessing to continue my studies abroad, I would feel extremely lucky and loved. A degree from an International university would be the best thing that could ever happen to me before I am 27. I also want to live in Canada. I don’t really feel that the Philippines was made for me. I feel “at home” here anymore. Maybe I’m being silly. Maybe I’m not. If I will be given the chance to study and live over there, I will definitely know what my true feelings for my homeland are.

Well, I’m back. Man, PLDT really has too try to keep their customers happy. They finally send over a DSL technician after I told them that I want my account deactivated because I will be transferring to Globelines Broadband. Lucky for them that I decided to stay. However, this will be the last time I will wait that long. One more screw up PLDT. One more screw up. Say good bye to another customer.

Like what I put in my previous blog post, I will be blogging about the best TV show I have ever watched, FRIENDS!!! Technically, I didn’t watch it while it was still airing. I recently completed my DVD collection of this great show. Though I don’t have the first 3 seasons, I picked up the story line very easily. This sitcom is not full of cheesy bullshit jokes, unlike most of the American comedy shows produced today, in fact, the jokes here are extremely funny but not in the sense that it is so stupid and mindless. I could not think of anyone else to play as the characters of the show. It was like a puzzle. They fit in perfectly. Nobody was good enough to replace them. Now that I have watched every episode, and to know that there won’t be a season 11 or 12 or any other season, I felt sad at first. These people have kept me company during all the lonely and cold nights I had over the past 4 years. Everytime I was left alone here in the house, I wouldn’t care that much because I know that I have 6 friends with me . After watching the last episode, I felt really sad. I know that it might be silly to feel that way over something that isn’t even real, but I don’t care. These 6 friends never fail to put a smile on my face everytime I’m down on the dumps. The 6 of them always keep me company when I’m left alone in the house or when I go home after the quarterly exams in high school. The 6 of them showed me that my concept of true friendship is absolutely correct. I will always envy people who have found their place amongst people. I don’t really know if I already have or if I ever had or if I ever will. I leave that to fate. I don’t want people to feel sorry for me because when you feel sorry for someone, you want to do something to relieve someone’s pain, not because you want to give that person the real and, possibly, the only remedy.

But no matter what, at least I know that Joey, Ross, Chandler, Rachel, Monica, and Phoebe will be waiting for me everytime I go home.

I will truly miss this show. I feel sad that all I will be able to see are re-runs, but happy at the same time because I have been lucky enough to see this TV show.